Happy Birthday… So How Are You? How’s Life Recently?
This was what most of my friends said when they whatsapped me Birthday wishes. “How’s life recently?”
It would have been easier if I just do a “Great, thank you”, but that would be lying, and it sucks to be lying to people. Yet again, if I was to say the truth, I will be repeating my problems to 20 over people at one go, and this will be extremely exhausting and negative. Hence, I decided to not reply this question and write this post instead.
I’m quite glad my birthday is just a few days after the New Year, which means I have some time to think about my New Year resolutions and make birthday wishes at the same time! So here’s a #LifeRecently post inspired by a blogpost I read 2 years ago. I don’t really have time for a monthly post, so I thought I will change it to an annual one instead:
Right now, I’m reading the book “Room” by Emma Donoghue. This book was recently made into a film starring Brie Larson and Jacob Tremblay (see my movie review here). As I do movie reviews, I tend to pick novels that have been made into films (especially if the films were good). So for the past one year, I’ve read “The Martian” by Andy Weir, “The Maze Runner” trilogy by James Dashner and also JK Rowling’s Harry Potter heptalogy (over and over again). It felt good to be a bookworm once more, as books are portals to temporary freedom from real life. Not that life hasn’t been good for me, it’s just how the real world is so complicated.
“To acquire the habit of reading is to construct for yourself a refuge from almost all the miseries of life.”
― W. Somerset Maugham, Books and You
There’s a few songs on my iTunes repeat list which I like listening to, songs that I can relate to or motivate me. There was a period of time where I like to listen to emotional love songs which makes me depressed. I realised how I was wallowing in self-pity and bitter against everyone. Why am I making myself unhappy? Listen to happy, if not hopeful songs that will lift your mood! Never underestimate the power of happy music. It is like a musical pick-me-up, a form of self-hypnosis or self affirmation to make your day better than before.
Movie-watching is a passion, a hobby, a lifestyle and a job for me. Ever since I decided to focus on movie reviews for my site, it has somewhat become an addiction. My last film was Room, and the next few I have in mind are: Joy (Jennifer Lawrence), Our Brand is Crisis (Sandra Bullock), Dirty Grandpa (Zac Efron), The Revenant (Leonardo DiCaprio) and perhaps Concussion (Will Smith)…
TV-wise, I haven’t switched it on for the longest time. The only local drama I’ve watched for 2015/2016 is “The Dream Makers 2” (志在四方 2) as I love the first series from 2013. My favourite character was Jeanette Aw’s Zhao Fei Er (赵菲儿) as I felt that the situation the character was in from first series was very real. I was more of team Jason-Fei Er, but sadly, it was not the preferred choice.
Other than this drama, the rest of the shows were mainly light-hearted China variety films adapted from Korea such as Daddy Where Are We Going《爸爸去哪儿》, Dad Came Back《爸爸回来了》, With You All The Way《一路上有你》and We Are In Love《我们相爱吧》as they were featuring some of my favourite actors. Besides, I was trying to learn how the videos were edited to make it so engaging and entertaining!
Some readers have emailed me to ask me, which I thought will be good include it here. I am currently using a 13″ MacBook Pro (My Boyfriend) for all my photo/video/blog editing work and a iPhone 6S Plus Rose Gold (Husband!) for photography (unless stated otherwise).
WORKING + WRITING RECENTLY//
2015 was a year where I tried on many hats and experiment with the different ABCs. From Acting, Blogging and Coaching, I travelled, worked with clients to host media events and tried doing more Youtube videos by joining Beauty Bound Asia. Towards the end of the year, I joined Page Advisor to be their freelance copywriter, and also assisted Eden with his various aspects of Business.
There were so many things to do every day, sometimes till late nights (or early mornings) that I lost track of time as well as my goals. I had to push away many paid posts and delay sponsored reviews because of these commitments. I lost the motivation to blog because of the amount of typing I had to do in the day.
But I am back, and I’m glad to be back.
“I choose to write because it’s perfect for me. It’s an escape, a place I can go to hide. It’s a friend, when I feel out casted from everyone else. It’s a journal, when the only story I can tell is my own. It’s a book, when I need to be somewhere else. It’s control, when I feel so out of control. It’s healing, when everything seems pretty messed up.
And it’s fun, when life is just flat-out boring.”
― Alysha Speer
Disoriented and lost. I guess that’s what I feel right now. I am quite disappointed with my progress and achievements in 2015. Perhaps I was too greedy wanting to try many different things. Perhaps I was too trusting, believing in the best of people, only to be disappointed by their broken promises or backstabs.
At the same time, I feel loved too. There were friends who were willing to put down their work just to help me when I ask for assistance. There were veterans who were willing step in warn me before I make mistakes, and also offer advice in terms of life paths and dealing with people. There were people offering me help to achieve the goals I wish to fulfil.
In this 2016, what should I do? Should I follow my brain or follow my heart? I need to let go of some responsibilities. Which one? Job A helps boost my existing skills. Job B provides me with overseas opportunities. Job C gives me chances to further my passion, yet it drains me emotionally and mentally. It is a tough decision. But I have to set my mind to do it before I go insane.
I’ve learnt a lot from 2015, mainly about life, and friends. Nothing is permanent. BFF can become strangers in a blink of an eye. I’ve also learnt about the carrot, the egg and the coffee beans story. When each of these objects are subjected to pressure under the boiling water, each reacted differently. The carrot became soft and weak. The insides of the egg solidify. The ground coffee beans, instead changed the water.
When adversity (boiling water) knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you the carrot that seems strong, but become soft and lose my strength with pain or hardship? Are you the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but after a breakup or some other trial, become hardened and stiff? Do you look the same on the outside, but become bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart inside?
Or are you like the coffee bean which change the situation around you when things are at their worst and elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
In 2016, I am going to have enough courage to make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can’t go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
My school life when everything was simple and straightforward, just like High School Musical. Being the school nerd, there’s no playing with feelings, there’s no cheating, there’s playboys coming to disrupt my life. Having idols simply because they are eye-candies and brighten up your life.
PLAN & RESOLUTIONS//
This is perhaps the first time in many years that I had difficulty coming up with a proper resolution to follow through.
Health & Fitness: To increase my working out frequency to 6 times a week.
Work: To learn how to compartmentalise my different jobs, duties and learn to say no when I can’t handle it.
Self: To volunteer and give more to charity. The type of happiness I get from doing this is different from Bubble tea!
Face my fears and insecurities, Stop pleasing everyone except myself.
Learn a new skill – be it driving or new language.
Love: Do not fall for gamophobic guys. Spend time on the one who will love me unconditionally. Don’t waste it on those who will contact me when they are bored, or when the conditions are right for them. I should be the only one, not one of the many. Love doesn’t hurt. Loving the wrong person does.
P.S. The last one is for all ladies out there. 🙂
It’s never too late to start over. If you weren’t happy with yesterday, try something different today. Don’t stay stuck. Do better.
Man, this took way longer than I thought it would. Now, share with me your “Life Recently”. I love reading (Remember?). Long stories. 🙂